STARDATE 031398

hey Torb,
   whatever was under that very intriguing title was not attached. i was

curious about it because it's a dilemma i've been facing
lately--granted,
not a bad dilemma--as i'm in that fairly early stage of a relationship
where
the issue is relevant. of course there is no real choice at first, but
eventually it can really (literally) fuck you up.
  (oh wow, sorry man, I'll dig it out and send it again under seperate
cover, it ain't THAT earth shattering, kinda like a David Letterman Top
Ten list,,,silly, light chuckles...*shrug)

   here's a question for you--is monogamy natural or necessary for the
human
species?  i don't like being single (i.e. celebate, or onanistic) and
then i
find that i lose a sort of creative edge when saturated and sexually
satiated...of course, as that subspecies of modern man, Homo Alaskanis,
questions of sexual satiation may have become moot to you now. i think
that
is the single worst thing about Alaska, and likely one of the reasons i
didn't settle there:  not enough womens.

(Monogamy? no, not natural nor necessary, it is a learned response and
not inherant within the species.  Think about it; little to no survival
value in creatures that 'mate for life' ie swans, geese, and all those
others on the endangered species list *laughs*  it's fine when there are
gazillions of ya running around on the planet, but for a relitively
miniscule race such as ourselves, no.  Generations of trbal customs and
taboos form the majority or our sexual morals in this world...*sigh*
silly, huh?   Not enough Womens is right *laughs* but we wouldn't be the
same if there were, ya know?   However, there is that up side to it,
doing WITHOUT for long periods of time for the shear reason that there
simply ISN'T ANY to be had does tend to give one a finer appreciation of
said 'missing persons places things' than the average bozo on the street
that has easy access to it.  You understand the Rock better than any of
me online comrades just 'cause you've spent so much time here, it ain't
just the lack of females...tell ya the truth I'd kill fer a decent piece
of Baklava right now, *dreamy sigh* )

   i did take a look at ICQ and am somewhat intrigued. i have not yet
engaged in Internet chatting. i have found that between long hours
writing,
e-mailing, and surfing, i spend more hours than i ever could have
imagined
in front of the computer screen, and so am hesitant to add another
computer
activity. obviously, though, chatting would be pretty cool. i'm debating

myself on it. after all, it wasn't that long ago i was philosophically
opposed to the Internet itself (you remember, years back, when the
Internet
was a blip on the horizon, we discussed its evolutionary implications on
the
back dock).

  (icq has been one of the best things to ever happen to me man, I kid
you not.  This whole computer shit started simply as a way to beat some
of the long distance costs of keeping in touch with Gilda and me folks.
I was buying a $50 phone card every month just to chat with Gilda, plus
some calls to me folks and ALL those postage stamps...remember how much
I used to write?? It added up FAST man, way fast.  So I justified the
cost of the computer that way, shit, by the end of the year it will have
paid fer itself pretty much.  I got this machine fer email, period.
Chatting and icq came to me...never went lookin fer it.  *laughs* last
winter when I went to me folks?  they got a modem fer their old mac,
yes? so there I am on the net and TOTALLY clueless, figured what the
hell, play a game, yes? something ZORKISH, or D&D like, ya know?  so I
typed into the search thingy 'Interactive Fantsy Games' and it comes
back with 'Interactive Fantasy Network' so I go there and it's a chat
room and the first people I meet are this dustbunnie creature and a
wizard named fizban, It was Karma man, they've become Family now.  Way
cool people, nuthin' but respect for 'em.  Icq was the same way, I was
chattin with a dude, tellin him about Gilda and trying to keep in touch
with her and he says what you need is icq, I couldn't figure out how to
download the bloody thing so this dude up and MAILS  it to me! is that
too cool or what?  Haven't seen hide nor hare of 'im since either, just
popped into me life that one day,  turned me on to a groovy tool, and
then split again...
it came to me, it works fer me, and it helps a lot,,,,shit man, you got
all of Reality world to fuck with! *giggles* if chattin aint comming to
ya don't sweat it, email is Way groovy and a Lot easier...)

    i am seriously considering kayaking up to Alaska this summer,
although
i'm not sure if Petersburg would be the destination or not. it
definitely
would be if i could work a couple months at my old salary; alas, that is
not
going to happen. i'm also applying with the Alaska Fisherman's Journal.
i
definitely need a taste of that forest. i think the kayak trip would
fill me
so full of beauty i could never contemplate the world with a parking lot

mentality again. shawn wants to do it, but i would have to finance it,
as he
will arrive here flat broke after 6 months in India. it would be kind of
fun
if he and i did one last tour as tray pullers, but i don't think i can
swallow 6 dollars an hour (last he wrote, his plan is to come back to
the
states and save up $10,000 so he can return to India and Asia for
several
years).

  (*sigh* I know how it goes, man, if either of ya make it up ya know ya
got a place to crash fer while, *shrug* there's food in the fridge and
what not.)

    was that dick song the other night Zappa?
(not to my knowledge, no.  it was forwarded to me, and well, there you
have it, now you know as much about it as I do *grin*)

    are you into  John Martyn?

(who?)

    i'll send you and excerpt from Infinite Jest when i get a chance.
i'm
pretty sure the Petersburg library would have a copy.

(you see how I spend my free time, *laughs* haven't been in the library
in Months now *giggle*  Readin' more than normal, tha's fer sure, but
it's all chat and net crap....keep pestering me about it, okay?  *grin*
I'll do it if ya keep at me to...)

mark
(torbjon)