Torbtown
The City on the Edge of Forever


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Free Write on White

Yee Haw!  Free write on white!  Free free free dreamy free!  Damn the punctuation, full speed ahead…  What is white and why?  White is wonderful.  Crisp, clean, cool… not the groovy cool (although it Is groovy) but the other kind of cool, the Cold Cool.  White is fluffy frost hanging from the pipes like an inverted Martian forest of ferns.  A maze of never-ending, never repeating crystals that defy gravity and boggle the mind with their empty density.   White is the fridge.  Not your fridge, your fridge is hell to one like me.  Not the fridge at Culinary, either… oh, they Think it’s Big, they Think it’s groovy… but what do They know?  They are food freeks… not Frost Freeks.  You don’t walk into My fridge, you Drive into my fridge… you drive into my fridge and get lost.  Three floors of frozen space, twelve holding rooms, six blast freezers, four shelf freezers, and let’s not forget the cubby hole, Bait Boys personal holding for his private stash of goodies.  When the whine of the line starts to wear on your nerves, or the clunk of the compressors coupled with the clang of the cannery causes your cranium to crack, when the roar of the Rayovacs and the boom of the Badders start to bring you down, then comes the time to take the ‘vader up to the third floor and delve into twelve, park your butt on a pallet of nice white boxes and let the thick bright white inverted forest of crisp clean crystals muffle the hustle and bustle of the factory… White Noise crashes against White frost and is tangled, snared, then snuffed out… perhaps causing one lone snowflake to break loose and drift lazily through the still air to join the ranks of it’s comrades on the floor… watching the flake fizzle, flatten, form into slick sheets of ice…the silence in twelve is louder then the roar and rumble of the factory.  There is no time in frozen space, life becomes eternal when white is your world, when the only light is a bare bulb hanging from a wire, when the only season is “cold” it’s impossible to tell if you’ve been sitting there five minutes or five years… I lost a lifetime in twelve.  White is life.  And while sitting there, in frozen silence, you begin to feel the death all around you.  Three million pounds of dead bodies boxed and racked and stacked all around you, above you, below you, in the box you are sitting on.  White is death.  Cool clean quiet death.  White is your sweat as it freezes to your face, white is the icicles at the corners of your eyes, white is the tears that never hit the ground, you try to cry for the death surrounding you, but the white won’t let you… White is holding.  White is waiting.  White is what screams the loudest when blood is splattered across it.  White was my world for ten years.  White was my life.  White is what helped make me who I am today.  White was our best friend, and our worst enemy.  White is that chunk of ice that’s stuck in the belt and gums up the whole works.  White is what keeps our fresh fish fresh.  White’s the GOOD box.  White is the paper of my paycheck.  White is my sheets at the end of the day that never ends…




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